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You have to learn to let go

Only you can set yourself free: I have acted stubbornly & I have been a fool I refused to let go & I denied the truth And when time came to face the reality, it shattered me  It broke me down, I lost myself  I lost the very me that I cherished with all the pride But I am my own savior  I couldn’t remain stagnant anymore I gain my momentum to move past it  Without feeling of remorse or vengeance . . I was me and free                   

Oh, My Dear Government !

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 Oh, My Dear Government! I would like to start with an honest confrontation, I am not someone who has complete knowledge of political trajectory of Nepal. But, every day, I do try to keep myself updated on what’s happening in my country, that too, out of general concern as citizen of Nepal. The restructuring of the country aimed at making the government’s presence ubiquitous within Nepal will be one of the major events in the history of Nepal. More power to local government who then shall work for people addressing their grievances at source was the main objective of federalism. Troubles came in the process when deciding the provincial capital or even while agreeing to the name of the province. I understand it might take effort and energy while deciding on provincial capital as people think that it will have major impact in development. But isn’t federalism adopted to ensure overall development anyway. However, I couldn’t quite process why naming a province was such a herculean tas...
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Bad is defined as worse, worst  unpleasant  and  causing  difficulties or  harm by Cambridge Dictionary. While Characterless is defined as a characterless person or thing is not interesting or has no style or unusual qualities . These both words sounds similar but are carefully used to express completely different situation. Bad is somewhat like light version for Characterless. It really bothers me how word characterless is always used for women while man easily gets away with being tagged as Bad. Characterless is used for women who according to society fails to adhere to the standard norms and rules made by society. On the other hand there has never been Characterless man because society has never outlined the standard norms and rules for man. I have plethora of evidence to support myself regarding this matter. I have seen how a women is categorized as Characterless if she doesn’t play along with the set of rules and regulations made by the hypocr...
BeyonD LiFE:- I may sound crazy but yes especially during night between time when I lay on my bed to I finally fall asleep, I am lost in my own mystique afterlife theory. I think about what happen to us when we die. The very idea of my inexistence after death scares hell out of me. I know that death is inevitable but I just simply cannot give in myself to the idea that we just vanish after we die. The very theory of inexistence makes me uneasy and I even get emotional. I feel like crying because I know there will be no any concrete answers for my questions. There is nothing much I can do about it either. I don’t know if there is someplace where we go after our death. I really hope there is one. Death is inevitable but as long as we are healthy and doing fine we rarely care about death. We feel like invincible. But when we become old or suffer from a life threatening disease etc and know that death is very near we panic because we are never ready to die. I believe not knowing what ...
Waiting outside the dialysis room: My father was diagnosed with Chronic Kidney Disease (CKD stage V) two and half years ago. It was extremely difficult to believe that fact and for a quite a little long time life was chaotic. We still hope for some miracle like an idiots that one day he shall be healthy again. After the diagnosis the treatment options available to us was either to undergo a Kidney transplant from compatible donor sharing same blood line or to take Hemodialysis twice per week with each session of 4hrs. After quite a struggle we got my father’s name registered in Human Organ transplant Center, which is the cheapest and well equipped dialysis centre in the country, for hemodialysis session. Yeah, it was quite a struggle because the number of patients with chronic kidney disease just keep on rising each day while there are limited resources at the hospital. There are three shift running, morning shift from 8 am to 12 pm, afternoon shift from 12 pm to 4 pm and evening s...

Walking HuMLA

    Walking Humla…………………….. I still remember the first lecture of my transportation engineering class of BE where my respected teacher Mr. Mohan Dhoj KC began with the importance of transportation for overall socio-economic development of the community. I couldn’t agree any less with his view and every other person in the class would totally agree with the importance of transportation facilities for overall development.  Being born in Damauli, district headquarter of Tanahun and moving to Kathmandu, The capital city for higher education I didn’t face any difficulties in travelling as there was perfect black topped road connecting Damauli and Kathmandu. This might probably justifies my indifference with the situation that a community/ district has to bear in absence of transportation until I travel to Humla as part of my job duty station. Humla is one of the 2 remaining district of Nepal without any road linked with National transport network of the country. I ha...

Menstruation Blockade:It exists everywhere........

I was aware that at some parts of my country girls and women have to sleep outside home during Menstruation. This practice is named as Chaupaddi. Basically, In Chauppadi, girls & women during menstruation have to stay outside home in cowshed and are not allowed to enter kitchen and take part in religious activities.  I had read about Chauppadi in some newspaper and I felt bad about it for sometimes after reading the  news but I eventually forget about it and I was back to my normal life as in my Home I am allowed to enjoy all the luxuries like sleeping in cozy bed with blankets on even when i am in my period. I am allowed to enter kitchen. Of course one has to maintain cleanliness and hygiene during period. The real tragedy was to witness the Chaupaddi and even forced to follow the practice by my landlord while I was transferred to Darma VDC of Humla as a part of my job. When my landlord put forward the idea that I should also follow the chauppadi if I live there, I was ...